Today's high will be 16c

Today in Northampton it reached 16c apparently, though im thinking that it was more because i've started to brown from it already. Yes, my skin doesn't need much help turning brown, and it seldom burns or turns red. However in hull it was hotter - which is rarely seen. I did enjoy today extensively, after my first and only lecture of the week i went straight to the computer lab to finish off my ghost story that i had to write for English - which was like 1,000 words over the limit but i don't care. A story is a long as the writer wants it to be rather than the marker. Then on the way back to my flat, i went a different way than usual - i went around the back of the pav and past the field, and i saw my gang so i spent of the afternoon on the field, catching the rays, and playing Donkey. For people who haven't played Donkey it's quite simple. you throw the ball and you catch it. but here's the twist. If you drop the ball, you lose an arm, so you can only catch it with one hand, if you miss it on the 2nd one you have to get down on one knee, the next one you miss you have to get on both knees. and the final you have to get on the floor via your stomach. If you catch a ball succesfully after any of these you can go back on space, so i you're just just playing with one arm and you catch it you go back to normal. You get the drift?
Today i only got down on one knee, but Ashley actually got down on her stomach. Twitch got down onto both knees i think - so i'm thinking that i won!
Anyway, here's to more sun please.

My Name Is...

Hey with all this time i really don't have, i've been wasting time on the internet once again. And this time is find out what my name is in different cultures.

My Hebrew name is Yaakow Daniyel Yisrael
My Chinese name is Jingman Meng (meaning pacify, calm, peacful, full and satisfy)
My stage name is Donnie Danville
My African name is Eniola Olabode
My Albianan name is Kostandin Gjergj
My Biblical name is Jahzeel Nereus
My TransformerTM name is Skywarp Swerve
My Hillbilly name is Billy-Boy Haypusher Marshall
My Wrestling names is XXX Threat Pain Rage
My Rapper name is FreshKilla 3000
My Goth names is Dagon Gabriel Marshall
My warlock name is Beetlespaz Marshall
My Literature name is Malvolio Bilbo Marshall
My Native American name is Tecumseh Goyathlay

Simon Armitage

I finally found the poem i have been looking for, for ages. Thanks to Holly. It was Simon Armitage rather than Ted Hughes. And here it is, it's my favourite poem i think


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am very bothered when I think
of the bad things that I have done in my life.
Not least that time in the chemistry lab
when I held a pair of scissors by the blades
and played the handles
in the naked lilac flame of the Bunsen burner;
then called your name, and handed them over.
O the unrivalled stench of branded skin
as you slipped your thumb and middle finger in,
then couldn't shake off the two burning rings. Marked,
the doctor said, for eternity.
Don't believe me, please, if I say
that was just my butterfingered way, at thirteen,
of asking you to marry me.

Simon Armitage

School Sports Day

i so can't believe that the University has put on a School Sports Day for us, full of school classics as:

Saack Race
3 Legged Race
Wheel Barrow Race
Egg and Spoon
Tug Of War
etc

Though, we never did any of that at school - not even primary, we did proper sports day stuff like running, and throwing and relay, and my event - the skipping race. I remember i used to win that every year, and one year i got beaten by Lisa Parker who also lived down my street. Ooh i was green with envy. i came 2nd that year, so the following year i was hungry to get back to my winning form. and that year Lisa tripped over and broke her ankle, and it was nothing to do with me being in the lane next to her. i promise ;-) That year i won, and that was the last year at Primary.

At school there was coloured teams - the Yellows, Blues and Reds. I in both the yellows and reds, i swopped to reds when i got moved to the reds in the Cub Scouts. But there was songs for the teams that the others used to sing louder than other teams. For reds it was - "reds, reds, wet their beds" for yellows it was "Yellows, yellows are fat fellows" and the blues were (which was my personal favourite chant "Blues, Blues always lose, cos they use their ballet shoes" And the funny thing was that the blues did always lose, i don't think they ever did win.

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A high hush quitens the crickets' cry

I'd like to take some time now to remember two of the best poets' of past times. Ted Hughes - who i've loved since i was younger - i remember reading him in Year 10, as i'm sure you do too Holly. I've been looking for the untitled poem for ages, but i can't find it anywhere. It's the poem about when he branded a girl with a pair of scissors. It's my favourite but it's hard to find when it doesn't have a name. Ted Hughes was born in West Yorkshire (same place as me) and died of Cancer in 1998. A lot of his poetry was about nature, and in his early years a lot of what he wrote was very violent which was influences through his father's tales of World War One. And of course growing up on the Yorkshire Moors, inspired him to write about the nature around him. Animals appear frequently throughout his work: as pitcures of holiness, metaphor, persona and icon. Perhaps the most famous of his subjects is "Crow," a combination of god, bird and man, whose existence seems pivotal to the knowledge of good and evil.

The second poet i wish to remember is Sylvia Plath who's poetry, I am just discovering. A lot of her poetry is about depression, and it very dark, and it seems no surprise that she committed suicide in 1963 after 6 years of unsuccessful marriage to Ted Hughes. I know there is a film about her out right now - called Sylvia Plath played by Gwyneth Paltrow. I'm thinking about checking it out. Has anyone seen it?

Distant From Life

I have now figured out that i am no longer depressed with life. I am just a bit distant. And the reasons why i am distant? I have no one to talk to anymore. No staying up til 3am talking to keeper, watching movie, or sat in the computer room. Instead i'm doing all those things on my own. William Carey seems too far to go to my mates. Therefore i'm affectively shutting myself away from the world. Even my flatmates have noticed that i haven't been around. I haven't even spoken to one of them since before Easter. and i heard Ross say this morning say "Is James in?" Dan replied - "probably not, he's never in anymore". So at least i suppose my lack of presence is being noticed with some people. I've gotta make sure that i don't slip away too much though, otherwise it is going to be really hard to claw myself back up into reality.Another thing i have noticed since i have become happier is that i'm no longer writing. It seems that my spoute of depression was inspiring me to write. The fact that i have lost my work twice in this year so far doesn't help things though. First in October i lost my writings that i started back in 2000, which meant a lot to me. And now i half lost half of the writings that i did over Easter. i should really learn to back up my work. And then i lost a paper copy of a poem i wrote about someone from Uni, so that is floating its way around Uni probably. It was left in C101 during IBO1002.So realising i'm distant, means that i'm distant from EVERYTHING at the minute. Friends and everything. Though, miracolously my mood is better than it was during the first term. Though in the first term i tended to numb the pain with alcohol. But there's only so much pain that can be covered with alcohol, before it starts causing problems. I have a constant reminder that i keep away that reminds me of a time where i was at my lowest in life in 2002 in my journal but that doesn't seem to be a problem to me anymore. 2005 is when i'm suffering the most, and it all stems from September 2004. Don't get me wrong - i don't regret going to Uni at all, but i just sometimes wish it was easier. It seems that my pretend world is becoming more reality than reality itself. I'm changing so much these days that even i don't know what i'm becoming and i sometimes just sit back and let these changes happen - whereas before i used to be able to control the urges. I don't even know who i am anymore.

Looking with my eyes

Looking for a job is pretty stressful, especially when you can't find one, but you desperatly need one to do your next shopping. I have an interview lined up, but last time i went there i blew it for some reason. What should i do instead? I thought that was nearly the best interview i had given. I'm just so not used to interviews. When i started work at Swanland News there was no interview, i was a paperboy before that so i just got the job, then when i worked at Swanland Conveiance Store, it was a case of the manager coming up to me and saying "Do you want a job?" the next day i was training. Then when i worked at BHS, it was a group interview, which i aced, along with Fiona, though i wasn't there long before i quit (about 2 months). Then there was Subway, where i really didn't want to work at all from the start, but i thought i'd give it a go. Oh how wrong i was for giving it a go - i lasted 3 working days.
So i've only had 50% success rate since i've been in Northampton with interviews that is. But still i'm thinking that maybe i'm just not good at interviews at all.

So what should i act like? Out there, or just normal? This time i'll dress better for Vue though cos last time i went in my cream trainers - maybe that was why? Well i didn't have any work shoes back then, so what was i supposed to do? I also tend to ace interviews better when it is a woman interviewing me too. I've only had one male interview me - and that's the one i didn't get.

Typical English Weather

Why is English weather so extreme? A few days ago it was well warm and we were all out on the field, bathing in the sun, albeit not enough to get a tan, but it was still enough to be able to feel good about life. The day that my SAD finally disapeared. I no longer feel depressed, i just feel distant. Which isn't helped by the fact that i haven't seen my gang since last Wednesday, and i haven't been out for over two weeks now.

Anyway, now it is chucking it down, on my first visit to the computer rooms, if it's raining like this after dinner, then i don't think i'll make me infamous 2nd trip.

Funnily enough, this is my favourite time of year, when it's just about getting warm, and people start getting the BBQ's out. First ones started like a week ago. Note it. BBQ's at this time of year are always dangerous though because of the threat of rain. Which is a typical thing in Spring in England, i'd even hazard a guess that we get more rain in Spring then we do in Winter.

But still i'd rather live here with the rain then somewhere that is realy warm.

Application Form

Today i have been filling my application form for Revolution Bar in Northampton, when i came across some rather wierd questions.
Answer them yourselves.

Cool or not cool? pick one
fizz whizz or sherbert dib dab?
Porsche 911 or Mini Cooper
Ant or Dec
Chips or French Fries
Manolos or Adidas
Stella or Carling
Tea or Coffee
North or South
S&M or D&G
X Box or PS2
Blonde or Brunette

Ethics

Is it wrong all the time to lie?

How far should a lie go?

Where are the boundaries?

Sugar Water

Okay to celebrate the end of Hallo day, i'm goign to suggest you all check out Cibo Matto. The song Sugar Water is brilliant. And the lyrics are just genuis, i especially like the second verse. For all you Buffy fans out there, the song can be seen in the Season Two Premiere "When She Was Bad", it's playing when Buffy walks into the Bronze and dances with Xander, when she says "Did i ever thank you for saving my life" Xander replies "No". Buffy whispers in his ear "Don't you wish i would" before walking out of the Bronze, ignoring Angel and Willow. I love that scene.

The velocity of time turns her voice into sugar water

I’m on a concrete way
The wind is blowing to the north-northwest
It smells like sands of the southern island
When a black cat crosses my path

A woman in the moon is singing to the earth
A woman in the moon is singing to the earth

La la la,
la la la la la laLa la la,
la la la la la laLa la la,
la la la la la laLa la la,
la la la la la la

I’m riding on a camel that has big eyes
The buildings are changing into coconut trees
Little by little
When a black cat crosses my path

A woman in the moon is singing to the earth
A woman in the moon is singing to the earth

La la la,
la la la la la laLa la la,
la la la la la laLa la la,
la la la la la laLa la la,
la la la la la laLa la la,
la la la la la laLa la la,
la la la la la laLa la la,
la la la la la laLa la la,
la la la la la la

We are taking sugar water shower
Shower

Armaggedeon Day

22605 days, 14 hours, 11 minutes, 44 seconds
That is when the world is going to end

(Mar 16 2067)

Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

Prompted by Keeper, about doing quizzes, i went to www.quizfarm.com. And i was going to see "How I Was Going To Die". And i was a little freaked out that i got 100% suicide. "Your death will be suicide. What more can I say? Fact: Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem." I wish i hadn't done it

Which highschool stereotype are you? - Drama Nerd

Music Recommendation - Indie and Emo

i loved this qustion in the movie type quiz "i never met my mother, but i know she died whilst saving me from th British"

Today i found....

Today i found an interesting blog about a US Road Trip that i have started to read. Its a blog about a couple road trip through 4 states of America. 1,400 miles in a 4x4. Check it out on the links.

Happy 3rd Hallo Day

Today is the 3rd anniversay of Hallo Day. I urge everyone to eat something Hallo. Im going to have sticky rice and salt tonight. Wont you join me?

The Soft Drinks Debate

Oh my god, i saw the funniest thing today on one of my friends blogs. it was a healthy debate on which was better - Pepsi or Coca Cola.

How can people argue over this. They are nearlly the same anyway. Though i do prefer Pepsi - but only if it's Pepsi Max. Any other Pepsi is just too foul.

Oh my god, now i'm debating the whole Pepsi vs Coca Cola thing.

The reason i think that Coca Cola out sells Pepsi is that CC is a much more established brand. It has more advertising on TV, and it came first. It is for sure that Coca Cola doesn't out sell Pepsi due to the fact that "it tastes better, in fact market research shows that in tastes tests Pepsi has come out the winner. However Coke sells because i feel that its drinkers indentify with their values: truth and tradition. Whereas Pepsi values are about change. Cocacola has alway been the "real thing" whereas Pepsi tends to speak to the "new generation".

When Coca-Cola launched New Coke, they had abandoned their values of tradition. Even though New Coke tasted better than Coke and it beat Pepsi in taste tests, it did bombed because its drinkers believed that tradition was better for the company. If they had wanted change they would have already converted to the Pepsi brand.

Be A Deviant

I am really getting into this whole deviant art thing. And i'm loving the feedback i'm getting from complete random people. Today i got from someone. At first i thought this was just going to be a thing that no-one really looks at - that's how my work has always been before i discovered Deviant Art, but now that people are actively commenting on my work, it makes me feel that i am actually good at this, and it insipres me to write more.
Before i came to uni, i had never written a single poem in my life - i just couldn't. I was always told to stick to the rules and go for the rhyme schemes. But now i say FUCK that, throw that all out of the window. Poetry doesn't have to have set patterns at all. It's a form of expressing ones self, and being told to formulate that into a set of ideologies is something that kind of takes away the truth from the work. Having to stick to the rules, surely means that it put restrictions on the poem, therefore becoming kind of fake, as it were.

Anyway anyone wanna check out my work so far it can be found at my Deviant Art site - See The Art Of Me link at the side.

House

Prepare For The 3rd Coming

I have been given a lifeline. The 2nd ressurection of my laptop will take place on Tuesday 26th April 2005. Hopefully it will work, and by joe, i can't wait for Tuesday to come.