Hasn't really been god living my life this past week. I have rent problems and now getting back into contact with my recent Ex hasnt really made things any better. The second really was just like a slap in the face.
Well you see this relationship lasted about 3 months, which isn't really a long time but it still meant something to me. But anyway my ex introduced me to the new boyfriend, first shocked at what he was like but then that just went and my ex started talking about how good he felt when he was around him and im sure my ex should hear my heart breaking in two right at that precise moment. Then my ex degrading the situation of our realtionship - from what i still thought it was to something worse. I just don't know how they work, i really don't. My ex just threw everything away that was until i showed them the poem i wrote on Valentines Day which i never got the chance to give in the end because it ended a week after the day http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/30346791/
after seeing this my ex started crying and said that they wished that they had been given this on VDay then things would have been different. Once again im not understanding, i thought that this might get my ex back and it just didnt work - all i got was WHAT IF... which isnt what i wanted at all. And now i'm thinking what is my ex thinking? Do they have this in the back of their minds? Whilst they are with him? How could someone do this?
And now i just sit broken hearted trying to move on but its in the back mind all the time